I have come to the conclusion that I am different. I know we are all different. But here is a little more background, and some may not like me for saying this. I started this little Church to remain positive in life. To focus on the positive and to reach out and accept others for who they are. But this doesn’t always work, and sometimes it can just bring you down.
I have very different views when it comes to religion and spirituality. I did not grow up going to church or worshiping any God. I grew up in a very agnostic home, and it was awesome! I was able to explore religion and spirituality and I was allowed to make up my own mind. This is exactly why I do not follow any current religion which is available to me. This is why I made The Church of Positive Vibes.
I just had to stop following a blog of someone who is very religious and believes they are doing the right thing, but I found it so negative and with such an agenda. I just found it to be everything I was trying to get away from. I would read the comments from the followers and it was all about praying for someone else, and how God wants you to pray for others etc…. I personally just cannot wrap my head around this concept. Good thoughts or prayers are great, but there is far more to do.
There is also a time when you need to step back and realize that your own perception is not necessarily what is actually going on.
Many years ago I was very sick with the flu. I had lost about 15-20 pounds (I was already tall and thin) and I had not been in the sun in over 2 weeks. The color was gone from my face, I was skinny and I was finally feeling a little better after being able to eat solid food for two days in a row! So I went out to see some friends. I still had a slight cough but nothing contagious and I needed to get out of my house!
A friend came up to me and asked me if I was alright. I said “yeah, finally.” I told him I had been sick and it was great to finally be feeling better. Well he didn’t believe me. He had a drug problem which he was recovering from and he kept insisting I was on Meth. This is why I looked so pale, this is why I lost weight and this is why I hadn’t been around. I told him he was crazy and left. For over a year he insisted that I was on drugs when I wasn’t and have never been an addict or even tried anything like Meth! He needed to project his own addiction upon me. He needed to “save me” before it was too late. He was so blinded by his own projection of the reality around him that he and I are no longer friends and he could not see that not everyone has his addiction.
He had also joined a church, through his 12 step program, and it was about going out and “saving” everyone. This was part of their recruitment process. That is what I call it, recruitment. This is where I have big issues with religion in general.
Yes, I am a reverend, but I am not a follower of any specific religion at this point. By definition I am probably an Atheist because of my non-belief in God, Allah, Jesus or any other name given to an omnipotent being. Why you ask? Why do I have the title of “Reverend”? Simple. It is the title given to me by the non-denominational church who ordained me and where I studied theology. The more I studied the more I found it to be not true. And I wanted to seek out the truth or at least what seemed true to me.
I do believe in energy. I do believe in spirit. But I do not believe we have quite figured it out yet. And maybe we are not meant to? The Universe is far greater than any human thought. It functions at such a higher level of existence that there is no way we can possibly understand.
What I do understand is the human connection, and maybe I should call it an animal connection. We are animals, a little higher functioning than our pets, but not really that much higher. Especially when it comes to figuring out the universe we are not much higher on that ladder! The animal connection is an instinct. We refuse these instincts when we start believing in a God. We think we are here to rise above our own instincts and we are here for a higher purpose.
My friend (who thought I was on drugs) was using his instinct to help a friend, he was misguided by his own flaws. He was misguided by his own beliefs. If he could have just believed me when I said I was sick maybe we would still be friends, but he insisted he knew because he was given a job of bringing in people to his new church. The job wasn’t to help others, it was to help others in our way. This is what I call an agenda.
True faith, true religion has no agenda. Heaven does not exist in my religion. So why believe then? Well, I don’t believe in anything specific, except for maybe being a good person. I have had religious people tell me my friend who committed suicide is in hell and I should pray for her soul. Seriously? This person who was abused, who was shot up with heroine when she was just 12 by a junkie who wanted to mess around with her, who was abused by her family’s church as well is in hell because she finally lost her battle with her mental illness? This is not faith, this is nothing more than a blind following of false scripture.
I believe the spirit lives on, how I can’t explain. But I have felt my friend’s spirit on many occasions, as well as others. But this theory of Heaven and Hell is completely false, at least in my studies it just doesn’t exist.
There was something I read recently, it was said to have been said by someone of Catholic faith, but I have heard this before and I do like the way it sounds. I’ll paraphrase as I cannot remember it exactly.
When it comes to helping others, be an Atheist. When you see an Atheist helping the poor or those in need they are doing it from the kindness of their heart. They are doing it without any thought that this will help them get into Heaven. They do not go home and pray for God to fix the problem. They take action and help as they can. So when it comes to helping others, be an Atheist, do it from the kindness of your heart and not because it is what God wants or for any other reason other than that it is simply the right thing to do.
I am an Atheist. I am a Reverend. I am very spiritual. I was not raised with religion so I do have a different point of view. I’m sure some will “pray for me” that I find Jesus or something like that. I appreciate the positive vibes, but please do this first. When you pray, do not pray with agenda. Whenever you say you wish someone could just surrender themselves to Jesus, or I wish they could just know what I know and understand why God is so important and is so great! I want you to stop and realize that this is pushing an agenda. Pray for joy. Pray and be thankful for being in the right spot to be able to help that person you helped today. Use prayer as reflection of the good things that have happened. It isn’t a wish list.
These are just my thoughts today. Without agenda, and I’m not trying to get your money or you to show up at my house and worship me. I just want you to be a good person because you wish to be one. That is really all I ever want.