I don’t know what to say. I’ve been away for a while, just regrouping and assessing everything in my life. But there is so much going on, not just in my life but in the world and I’m finding myself struggling to find my place. I’m sure many others feel this way, well, you’re not alone!
I have a lot of female friends, and all of these allegations coming out lately have me really thinking about things. I get together with my fiends, take photos, they are cool with me and I’m cool with them. It really is that simple. There are no weird vibes, no creepy vibes etc… we are just good with each other and treat one another with respect. But that doesn’t seem to be what is going on these days.
People are upset all of the time. TV shows trigger people’s emotions and cause a reaction. Our political system is a system of us vs. them. Victims are victimized over and over again and I don’t know where it ends?
There is only one thing I can control, it is how I act and react to situations in life. I have to tell myself that no matter how someone else acts I have to act the way I wish to be. It kind of goes back to Gandhi “become the change you wish to see in the world.” type of mentality.
To gain respect one must first give it. I remind myself of this every day. It doesn’t always work that way and I still have my moments but I have to keep reminding myself of this. And when it does work, it makes me want to do it more. I still talk trash to other drivers, but then I find myself backing off and laughing at myself for what I said. I’m an idiot a lot of the time, and that is perfectly okay, this also means I am human and alive!
I don’t know what to do next or even what to say next. I am just happy to be here, to have good friends and to be able to enjoy life to the fullest. I don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow, I just know that I want to be able to say I enjoyed every minute possible and I helped those I could. I want to stay positive and to help spread positive vibes as much as humanly possible at all times. It is a lot of work, but in the end it is all worth it!